September 17th- Day 34

For some reason, this self-destructive gene in me keeps popping up. I'll do really great for a while, then as soon as I see some kind of results, I stop. I have been that way almost my entire life and it's about time I quit quitting! After my measurement update, I was thrilled! I was excited. I was jazzed. But, for some reason, the gym didn't work out that day due to scheduling conflicts (kids, you know). Ever since then, I've ditched on the gym, I've eaten crappy and so much to boot! I don't know what it is, but I would love to remove that part of me that starts to self-destruct as soon as I start making progress.

My body is already starting to show its protest to the way I've been treating it for the last 2 1/2 days. I've got what look like huge bug bites on my feet. But since there's no bite at the tops of them, it's obvious to me that it's just my body trying to expunge all the terrible toxins I'm exposing it to. This happened to me once before when I was on a strict Reliv cleanse for a while. All my joints (elbows, knees and fingers) starting getting liquid-filled bumps on them. My feet got the worst ones even though there were only a couple there. At one time, I had to go to the quick care because I thought one was actually a spider bite that was getting worse.

Our bodies are amazing things. They are so effective at preserving themselves while we are so good at destroying them. They are such functioning machines as long as we provide the correct kind of fuel. Unfortunately, I am terrible at consistently fueling my body well. I feed it great just until it gets used to that kind of goodness and starts functioning as it should. Then I throw a figurative wrench in the mix and I start to shut down, one system at a time. By the time I realize what I've done, I don't have any energy and I really don't want to take the time to make good food or exercise anymore. Such a vicious cycle.

Well, today I break this little mini-cycle I'm on. Today I go to the gym. Today I eat all 6 meals. Today I get the nutrition my body is screaming for. It's not like I don't have the food here in the house! (Gotta' love Costco!) Today I stop the scale from creeping back up to 225.8 lbs like it has this morning. Today I take back control and get back on track!